I hate pressure!!

There's another Fever Open House party tomorrow, and not sure if I can be bothered to go. It wouldn't be an issue if Jon* and Lisa* (the couple Daniel and I got together with at the previous Open House) didn't keep texting me to come along, share their hotel room etc. I keep texting them back to say that I'm fairly busy that day and not sure if I'll be up to it. The last thing I want to do is make a commitment to turn up and then not bother. That's just not me! (You know me, the figurehead of politeness!)

Problem is they've still kept texting me (we're up to six texts so far!) and I'm getting sick of it! I've already explained that I might not be able to make it. Anyway, even if I do go, I don't see why I should restrict or pigeonhole myself to one couple, regardless of whether or not I enjoyed their company last time. I like to keep my options open, like everyone else. I'd simply tell them that, but again, I'm too polite for my own good. I've already said that if I don't meet up with them tomorrow, we can arrange some other time this summer, so I don't know why they just don't get the hint and get over it! What makes it even more annoying is it's Jon that's been texting from his phone, not Lisa (despite the fact she was the one who took my number in the first place). Women are so much more perceptive - I bet if I'd explained the situation to Lisa instead of Jon in the first place, she'd have understood and let it go. Which makes me think that Jon isn't telling Lisa he's been texting me constantly - and that, my friends, is NOT good! I'd probably text her to let her know that he's been texting me, but I've been in a similar situation before and it didn't work out so well.

Basically, the male half of a couple I'd met before kept calling for me to meet up with them. I casually mentioned it to his partner in passing when I saw her online on MSN, and it turns out she had no idea! As you can imagine, all hell broke loose! She accused him of just wanting cheat under the guise of swinging, she accused ME of leading him on and getting him to lie to her (as if!), he accused ME of being mean and vindictive .... and I ... let's just say I blocked the both of them and told them to fuck off! I don't need that sort of drama in my life!

So, I've sent Jon an email (yes, he's been emailing me, AS WELL AS texting!) telling him (yet again) that I'm not sure I'll be coming, but if I do, I'll definitely come over and say hello. Let's hope he gets it this time!

Pleasant surprise ...

Met up with Royal Marine guy (RM) yesterday afternoon at London Bridge and was pleasantly surprised. I'm like your average civilian - we all think soldier type people are a bit on the dim side (or maybe that's just me?) Anyway, we got on quite well, and had a looooong discussion about the Iraq war (casual sex and intelligent conversation make a great combination lol). We parted ways three hours and four rounds later - I tend not to make a habit of sleeping with people the very day I meet them.

Turns out that rule didn't work out too well yesterday. Got home, and came to my senses. I mean, Daniel's away, the house was empty, Tim Henman was losing YET again, and I was faced with an evening of nothing - why put myself through that when there was a willing partner in crime less than an hour away?! So called up RM and went over to his place. I got there at 10.30 p.m. and didn't leave till 6.00 a.m. this morning. Actually, that's not entirely accurate - I was MEANT to leave at 6.00 a.m. - got up, started getting dressed, then got pulled back and stripped down again! lol. Not divulging too many details; suffice to say that we broke the bed - literally! - and I left exhausted and happy. Oh, and I'm totally convinced that there's some sort of oral revolution going on - men are suddenly a lot less selfish and a lot more giving. Whatever it is, I'm not complaining! Long may it live!!!

Off for now. Am yet to get any proper sleep so feel a bit on the weird side. Maybe I'll put a bit more down when I'm a bit more alive :)

Getting back to normal (I think!)

It's been an eventful week. Finally starting to relax after a particularly stressful period last month (though 5 a.m. starts are still par for course!). Daniel's back, but is off again later this month. I keep trying to guilt him about his carbon footprint, but he just reminds me that my tobacco habit isn't helping matters either! I suppose he's right. Then again, I don't drive so no need to feel that bad just yet.

I'm currently chatting on MSN Messenger to some Army Guy* - sorry, Royal Marine! (I stand corrected) - I met off AdultFriendFinder. Spoke to him very briefly on the phone last night - can't place his accent, but he's definitely not a local Londoner. Seen him on cam as well (only face up, mind!). Cute mug, nice smile (oh, and I've just seen his shoulders! lol), but I don't know if I can be bothered. Emotional fatigue, a close friend of mine calls it. Daniel and I have been having issues, which we're getting round pretty well - a great mixture of long talks and more and more sex! - so not sure if I want to keep meeting up with random people. To be honest, I don't think I have the energy! Plus, pretty sure Army Guy - sorry, Royal Marine! - is just a bit of an enforced distraction from Mark.

Talking about Mark, I'm trying to limit the amount of time I spend chatting to him, and failing miserably! He's way too cute for his own good, he listens to all the trash that spills out of my mouth and from my fingers, AND he's a great lay! Now, if God really did love me, He'd have given him the sexual prowess of a Venetian God coupled with a shitty personality. That way, sex the one time would have been more than enough. Seems like God feels that it's payback time for all the sinning I've been up to ... So fine! God, if you're reading, I'm fucking sorry, alright?! Well, till the next time, at any rate ....

PS - I'll let you know how it goes with Army Guy - sorry, Royal Marine!

German, Swedish and Hotness all rolled into one! Pt II

Finally met up with Mark* on Wednesday. All I can say is, oh my God! I hardly ever use the word "beautiful" to describe a guy, but I shall have to make an exception in this case. Tall, floppy blonde hair, bright blue eyes and the nicest smile I've seen in a long while. We met in front of Temple tube station and went out for a drink at a bar just off the Strand. I don't think I stopped staring at him the two hours we were there. Nothing happened (though, Lord knows, I was scanning through a list of the nearest hotels in my mind), but we did decide to meet up again.

And we did. Friday night in Covent Garden. It was a bit of a spontaneous one (or at least, that's what HE thinks!). We went back to his sometime after midnight and, I have to say, the next four and a half hours were the most amazing and intense I've experienced in a long while. He's most definitely a giver - oral sex was never so good (or prolonged!) I've got tingles running down my spine just remembering everything we did. Oh, and can I just say: alternating between one's warm tongue and ice on a woman's clit will drive her crazy! Or at least, it did me!

My only problem? I can't stop thinking about it (and him!) I've pretty much masturbated myself awake and to sleep (and everything in between) since then! This poses a bit of a dilemma. My head's telling me that continuing to meet up with him would be a bad and dangerous idea (sex that great can only get more and more addictive!) Why is this a bad thing? Well, I've never had sex like that with anyone other than Daniel, and there's always a far and distant danger of indulging oneself with one person at the expense of the other, the latter usually being one's long-term partner! Or so most people tell me ....

Maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself. Mark's made it very clear that he wants to meet up again. And no, before you start wondering, he's only looking for no strings sex, nothing more. So am I. But good sex (sorry, amazing sex!) can't ever truly come with no strings, can it? I'll just have to see how it goes ... (and keep recharging my vibrator batteries in the meantime!)

* all names have been changed to protect the guilty